Mindbending films that don't bend my mind so much

I'm not going to go into the plot of a movie called Predestination. It's based around a paradox and I struggle with some factors of time travel movies. They should've stopped at Terminator 2 and never made the Sarah Connor "Somebody left the portal door open" Chronicles. I refuse to acknowledge the other films. But Predestination wasn't a badly made Australian film. It just had a stupid (in my head) premise that impresses people who find that stuff so complex and deep. I thought it was cringey and the concept of a character falling in love with the opposite gender representation of themselves who turns out to be them, was made stupider for the fact it was "dark" when they had sex and they didn't recognise themselves. The make up is done badly enough it's not realistic that this female character wouldn't recognise the male version of herself. Plus she's set up as an intersex person, so I guess the whole concept of them creating themselves by falling in love with themselves just made me cringe. The plot's designed to follow the very concept of predestination whereby all the main characters are the same person. So it has to function around this, the plot with the bomber is intrinsically linked to the plot of the character John, despite both threads seeming unrelated. But I wasn't satisfied by discovering this twist. Long story short, all I could think of for a tagline was "Go fuck yourself. Literally." You don't really know the motivation of this person other than they're stuck in a loop. Plus I have a weird issue with hybrid Australian/American productions that have mixed casts with Aussies doing bad American accents. I still argue the Matrix is hindered by the Australian factor, I couldn't convince people how necessary they were to the "deal" to film here. I kinda liked Daybreakers but I haven't bothered to watch it again. They're not badly made films production wise, it was just the element of someone not realising they'd had relations with someone else who looked like them, that was the part that broke my brain. It wasn't like they really made the character look more masculine because they were intersex.

I'm probably being unfair it was just something that stuck in my craw.

I'm sorry, but your album for divorced wine moms doesn't vibe with me

I'm becoming guilty of just buying albums of singers/bands that I don't really bother to listen to, because I've always bought their physical media for the sake of collecting them despite them going untouched now. I could put them on a PS3 but now I use my phone and a bluetooth speaker. Technically this is a better arrangement for the artist because I'm now buying two different versions of one album, so more money for them, but the issue is I'm not really listening to the CD either. I got bummed out They Might Be Giants have released so much material, not including side/solo projects, for me to ever listen to and absolutely love and appreciate.

Any new musician/band I like now I buy the digital version since it's something I can have immediately, at a decent quality. I probably won't get physical copies of the new Garbage or Halsey albums. I admittedly only like 2 albums and a bunch of B-sides by Garbage, and Halsey's new record just happened to be more my vibe than Tori's or Garbage's. I didn't fully get into Fetch the Bolt Cutters either. All of these are just ending up on playlists on shuffle so I'm not "experiencing" any of them as intended. I thought I was into Gods and Masters but there are songs on there I keep skipping for being too depressing, even for me.

And I keep skipping the tracks from Tori's Ocean to Ocean. I heard the last song Birthday Baby while out walking and my brain just couldn't handle listening to another dirge about a jilted woman. Between that and Adele giving us more of the same theme, (and she still gets praise for it, I'm like fucking why? Are you not sick of her exploring her relationship failures yet?), I cannot say I'm here for the "soundtracks to your divorce" genre. Even with Tori, she's still married but persistently explores the idea of being divorced or failing in her marriage. Like if you didn't know any better, you'd say Night of Hunters was her divorce album, the way we assume Lemonade signified the near-demise of Beyonce's marriage via infidelity. You can play with those concepts whether they happened or not, but why did I love Lemonade more than Ocean to Ocean? Halsey's new record's supposed to be about being pregnant but lyrically you don't get that impression. The Nine Inch Nails aesthetic added to it sucked me in but the lyrics kept me there, the hooks were good, the themes were still clicking with me, we suffer from the same illness but she's gone darker with it, I get the struggle despite being out of that space. And Adele's younger than me, so I can't say this is middle aged sad bastard music for women because she's like just turned 30, and I'm nearly 40. She suffers from horrible social anxiety, did she write about that instead? Because I don't think she did. She wrote a Bond song, but so did Garbage and Billie Eilish. Just glancing over an article from Adele, the songs mentioned were all about new relationships after the deterioration of an old one. You don't have anything else? Really? Well, it's selling like nobody's business regardless, even though I haven't heard her constantly like before, when she was on every damn cafe and supermarket radio. Like if we're getting CDs named after her current age is it going to be like this when she releases "50"?

I don't think I have an album that's in line with where I'm at right now. You can be in a stable relationship and still enjoy a good breakup song, but I'm also not a single mother struggling with a breakup whereby I need a funeral song for a divorce. I like Adele as a person, I think her sense of humor is wonderful, I still love Tori as a person I'm just too far from who I was when the music clicked with me. Choirgirl was so much more darker and spoke about a miscarriage but maybe that pain felt universal, I still love it. I think Halsey can be socially tone deaf but I was really into Badlands for some reason. Fiona's vibe remains very similar but her music becomes more "her" as time goes on, which I love more. I don't demand these people make albums for me. But I reserve my right to an opinion that it's not for me.

I know I should really give the new Tori album like a proper going over, I keep listening to random tracks and really liking the scope of songs sonically but lyrically my brain isn't into it. I like to go over lyrics when I'm learning songs and there's teeth in some of it but emotionally I keep shrugging. Stuff like: 

There are those who don't give a goddamn
That we're near mass extinction
There are those who never give a goddamn
For anything that they are breaking
There arе those who only give a goddamn
For the profit that thеy're making

To me just doesn't carry any power, like we know this is the case so it's not a revolutionary act to say this  now. When you're dealing with songs about grief it's not the right frame of mind to think oh I have to experience the same loss for this to resonate. I have lost someone this year, and I don't think I've mourned the way I should have. I understand the loss Tori's gone through, I can't imagine how hard it would be to lose your mother no matter how long they've been ill, but then she's had a much closer relationship with her mother, that would be harder to endure. The lyrics do have a lot of sadness/anger/grief I guess it's not coming out in her voice and performance. There's a kind of resignation now fire has become water, which makes sense.