Falling...

A TV show having an impact on you five years before you ever get to watch the damn thing is significant. Falling by Julee Cruise was such a beautiful song that became so insanely popular, I bought a compilation album that included this but not until I was in my teens. I have a memory of hearing Falling when I was five, only I was actually closer to ten and I think I attached memories of my five-year-old self standing around outside our church by pencil pines pops up when I hear it. I also remember the  "Dead, wrapped in plastic." proto-memes (catchphrases from shows were basically our memes) and jokes you made at school. But then I didn't get the VHS tapes on rental until I was sixteen I think, so I could rent half the tapes then rent the other half. Watching Fire Walk With Me didn't help anything, (it was the first R rated movie my mother allowed me to watch in high school and I was 17) but by then I was basically too into the show to just forget I ever saw it, I was into the lore and making theories and just obsessed with Laura. I was living in Perth so I managed to get my hands on the soundtracks and an import copy of FWWM. We'd chatted with randos about theories. The DVDs came out, then the Missing Pieces, which didn't help. So, we though it was over. Then the Return happened and my emotions etc. But again, nothing could be truly saved. There was no bringing Laura back. There would be no righting of the wrongs.

I digress. I was here about Falling, how it was in my life before anything else Peaks related. Questions in a World of Blue is probably the song that sticks me in the heart every time, but Falling was just one of those songs like Caribbean Blue that I obsessed about having a copy of. It's such a beautiful song on its own. And it was sung by another unique, irreplaceable voice. A voice we lost today. She wasn't old, just suffering from lupus. There were a few souls lost after the Return. It really felt like a proper goodbye to the Log Lady. You don't think 60 is that old, then someone you admire passes around that age and it's still a shock. John F got in a crazy car accident, after all the COVID nightmares another one hits and more shows are cancelled. But you want these people to stick around. I've been lucky most of my favourite people are still around, but I wonder how bad I'll feel knowing they're gone.